Tonight I got a word...

I need to listen to it again because I was trying to understand it in the moment and I couldn't. Well, that was an interesting post.

Random

Well, I don't exactly know what I'm going to write about so we shall see what proceeds forth.
I sang tonight with my dad which is usually fine but I was getting all irritated which I usually don't about things I already know he does that shouldn't surprise me. I didn't have the right attitude for worship and tried to pray before and get into the presence but I'll be honest and say that it mostly just me singing. (Which is one of the top things I hate most)

After service people were kind and nice telling me and my dad how good we sounded together yadda yadda. He didn't do or say anything weird, it's always other people. Oh you raised her right and all that. Eventually someone said well I've only been here for this many years so it was all him and I said, it was all God. I have a problem with anyone including me taking credit for anything good that I am. If me, the human being with a choice doesn't take credit for making the decision to follow Christ, then it sure means that no one else should get that credit either.

Am I pms'ing? Probably lol I just had to vent for a second

August 8th 2016

Wow, today is Monday the 8th and the first day at my new job as the newest lunch lady at Blue Eye High School. I'm really excited about it actually. And guess what? It's raining!!! Gahhh, the Lord knows what He's doing and every time I question Him He comes through and I just think about how silly it was that I didn't listen or trust Him the first time. Wanna know something else? I don't think I've met my husband yet.

There have been a couple of ideas or possibilities here and there but the more I get to know people and hear what comes out of their mouth, the less likely of a possibility it seems. I'm really glad that I didn't do anything in a rush and that things can be normal because I couldn't handle any more awkward.

Wow, it's pouring down rain.

Anywho, I got to sing with my dad yesterday at church and the Holy Spirit was so sweet and moved on the congregation and the whole spirit of the place was different. Thank you Pappa for that.

I'm on a new adventure and even though it's been being prepared for awhile, I feel like today is the new beginning. I'm in awe of what my life is because well, I don't even know exactly what it is. Oki, I'm gonna go take a shower and get ready for my first day of work.

Smile. :)

8/2/16

The wisdom of this world is dismal
And the depth of their understanding is like a shallow pool for dogs
They can only re-wrap the packaging
Of lies that have been told
Lies millennia old

Stop trying to convince me that your way is best
Because I've tried it and its left me empty and left...
Over and over again the cheap, plastic facade cracks
Can't you see it?
Can't you feel it?

You know you never feel quite at peace
You know you're still looking for a safe place to rest your feet
You know your soul is still unrested and turmoil
beckons your attention

You fight not to give in
You try to will yourself to let it go
But with every 3 steps forward
It's only a matter of time before you take 5 steps back
And most assuredly you look around and there you are again
And there you will always be...

- A.E. Torres