Well, it's been a long time...

So it's the middle of August 2015 and after logging back in I realized how long it's been since I last posted! Kind of an update (in case you care), I am single again and the Lord is so good. I won't go through all the details of that crazy train I was on but let's just say I'm in a MUCH better place now surrounded by people who see gold in me and me in them. I'm actually around like-minded people now...what?! Yeah, I'm not the weirdo who thinks Christian philosophy or learning about the Bible is weird, the Lord brought those people straight to me. I am so blessed.

There is always this picture my mom gives to me. We are always holding onto this ragged teddy bear because it's cozy, comfortable and it's been there for so long we don't know what we would do without it. But here comes Jesus, and He has a HUGE teddy bear, you know the kind, the giant one every girl wants her man to win for her. :) But the only way we will get that giant teddy bear is if we give up the comfortable one we have. We can't see what Jesus is holding for us but it's the faith and trust to know that He is always good that will hopefully eventually win us over into giving that up.

I gave up my old teddy bear and am now slowly starting to embrace a giant overly stuffed, soft as can be teddy bear and I'm loving every second of it. I am still healing from the hurt and insecurities I carried with the last bear but God is so patient that He just keeps being there no matter what. Insecurities and fear come from a place of imperfect love and if I continue to stay in the perfect love of Christ, eventually all those things I started dragging with me along the way will start to drop off. :)

I am blessed. I am joyful. I am ready to embrace the giant teddy bear.