People have faith in me...
In things they've never seen me do.
Things I have never openly done.
This past week alone.
On more than 4 occasions
Me saying something in a nonchalant manner
And the other person totally taking me seriously even if they had never met me in my life
It's quite scary I must say
It's happening
I can feel it
Something soon is about to unfold
If it isn't starting already
Of course I don't think I'm ready for it
But God knows what I've asked for and He knows what truly makes me happy
He knows exactly what He put inside of me
And He's willing (thankfully :) ) to be patient and guide me along the way
I'm gonna have to work for it
But what else is worth working for?
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
wowza
So I came against a brick wall yesterday...
and it hurt.
You know how people say that if you are trying to NOT be something so much that it occupies your mind most of the time, then that is EXACTLY what you'll become? Well, it happened to me.
Yes dear friends. The one thing I didn't want to be I became. Not myself. Of course out of all the other things I could possibly worry about that doesn't seem to be a big deal but if you knew me, those other things don't even have a breathe in my life anymore.
I've always battled with being myself. Where to draw the line between being loud and brutally honest and being super kind and an "angel". People who know me best know that I've been on a journey of being a b****, to being loving and compassionate and trying not to hurt anyone's feelings.
And here I am now. Having grown much during this past year, learning true humanity and learning (trying to comprehend) God's love, I have realized that the true identity of Amber Torres doesn't lie within herself as she once was ignorant of the truth. But as she is now...with the working knowledge of THE TRUTH. The One from which all things are created. Learning that I am this creation for a reason and for this season and if I TRULY want to be the me to the fullest potential. I must put all other opinions and thoughts to the wayside and completely focus on what I kNOW I'm supposed to be or figure out along the way.
This is really a change for me. Being aware. That is my slogan this season. Constantly living life on purpose. Never a thought a look or anything without my filture....MY FILTURE...which God gave ME.
and it hurt.
You know how people say that if you are trying to NOT be something so much that it occupies your mind most of the time, then that is EXACTLY what you'll become? Well, it happened to me.
Yes dear friends. The one thing I didn't want to be I became. Not myself. Of course out of all the other things I could possibly worry about that doesn't seem to be a big deal but if you knew me, those other things don't even have a breathe in my life anymore.
I've always battled with being myself. Where to draw the line between being loud and brutally honest and being super kind and an "angel". People who know me best know that I've been on a journey of being a b****, to being loving and compassionate and trying not to hurt anyone's feelings.
And here I am now. Having grown much during this past year, learning true humanity and learning (trying to comprehend) God's love, I have realized that the true identity of Amber Torres doesn't lie within herself as she once was ignorant of the truth. But as she is now...with the working knowledge of THE TRUTH. The One from which all things are created. Learning that I am this creation for a reason and for this season and if I TRULY want to be the me to the fullest potential. I must put all other opinions and thoughts to the wayside and completely focus on what I kNOW I'm supposed to be or figure out along the way.
This is really a change for me. Being aware. That is my slogan this season. Constantly living life on purpose. Never a thought a look or anything without my filture....MY FILTURE...which God gave ME.
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