Almost May 2012

Ya know, there's been a lot of clarity in my life. Which is something I haven't had or really embraced for quite sometime. I know what I want to go to school for. I'm actually content with myself. I'm always improving and getter better but I'm happy. There are a lot of people who don't think I have the right to be happy. Why should I be happy being 25 and living at home with no college degree and a 12 hour a week job? Because I have God. I'm not going to dampen the wonders He has done in my life and through me just because people think they have all the power in the world to make things happen for themselves. I look back at my life and I wouldn't want it any different. Every cry, every heartbreak, every disappoint, every mistake, every laugh, every drip of sweat, every thing. I've learned from it all. And that's something money can't buy you. I've realized in this life that most of the best things in life can't be bought with money. Of course we need money to buy necessities and for gas etc. but even if I lived in a little apartment I would be happy as long as I was where God wanted me to be. And that's the truth. As long as there's an angel keeping my car together or someone who can fix it, that's what matters to me. The reason why I want to be blessed in my finances is so that I can make dreams come to reality. The things God has put inside me and with the people I'm closest to. To reach this dark dark world. That's why. So that people can't use that age-old excuse, "we don't have enough money". God owns ALL the jellybeans. The devil knows he can't tempt me with money. No amount of money can be put on the gift the living GOD has given to me. I won't use it for negative, demonic, or anything on that side. I love my God. He gave up everything for me. Just so I would have a chance at true joy, peace and love. And if I spend the rest of my life showing Him how grateful I am, it wouldn't be enough.