Post for May

You're a shell of a man I used to know
Or maybe the shell was always there but you hid it really well
I always wanted to believe the best
Think of everything on the bright side
The best thing you did for me was show me Jesus
You're broken
Hell, we all are
But I have to say that if I didn't have God
I would be a complete wreck
Selling my soul for something that won't last
Piecing myself out to men just so I felt good enough
Even if just for a moment
But I don't
At 26 I truly understand that He will ALWAYS take care of me
I may not have a boyfriend or a husband to be there for the "manly" things
Fixing a car, lifting or moving something
Providing for my needs
But HE always provides
Through different avenues and different people
And I am ok with that
I'm MORE than ok with that
Because I've seen what not trusting in God looks like
What happens when you take your life into your own hands without seeking His face
And trusting that His plan and timing is best
Nothing good
And the consequences last a lot longer than the time it took to carry out that deed
It's time
My grandfather will be be measure of what a man should be
Sure, he's the kind of man you meet once in a lifetime
But that's all you need right?
ONCE
And until then
Well, and even then
I will trust in my Heavenly Father
While trying to keep that small innocent part me
Still innocent
Trying to keep that child-like heart alive
Burning with the truth of Jesus
NO ONE
Will steal that away
I don't care who tries to blow it out