Picture this, a 10 year old girl dealing with pockmarks, pores the size of a crater and NO one to help guide her through the early awkward stages getting bullied on the bus on the way to school. That girl was me. Frizzy curly hair no one knew what to do with people my hair was different than everyone else in my family, and skin that was unruly. I was raised by my dad. God bless him, he did the best he could but hair and skin care wasn't his forte.
Fast forward or more like... slow forward through my teens, twenties and early thirties not only dealing with my constant weight issues but also NEVER wearing anything that would show my back, arms, legs or my bare face. This last year, at 33 I decided to do a lot of research, spend a good deal of money, and trial and error a lot of things to get my skin to be a beautiful canvas for the makeup I love wearing.
That's how it started. No foundation I tried would work, my face never looked the way I thought it should and I was constantly self conscious. I am happy to say that although I haven't figured it all out because well... we ARE in the frigid of Winter and Summer will bring a whole new set of challenges, I'm happy with where I'm at. And you know how I got there?
Besides loving how my own skin looked, a friend's mom I had just met out of nowhere said, "You have beautiful skin." I was in shock and didn't know how to take the compliment because it isn't one I've ever received before. I told here I was wearing makeup. I wear a pretty shear amount but I felt bad taking skin credit where makeup helped. She said, "Yes, but I know you have beautiful skin." I wanted to start crying, okay I cried on the inside. My whole life I've been so insecure about so many things. My weight, my skin, my hair, etc. etc. And here I was at 33 finally figuring out how to listen to my body and skin to make her the happiest.
I wanted to write about this moment because it was important to me. It may not mean a lot to anyone else but it does to me and maybe someone who has dealt with skin issues or any other issue their whole life might read this and know there is hope. And by the way, there are great ways to do this WITHOUT spending tons of money. Picking and choosing what is worth it is where I'm at now. :) Wherever you are, you're loved. <3
