Awe...

I realized that I say I'm in awe of God pretty often. More times than pretty much anyone I know. But really, I am in awe of Him. Just the way He does things, His timing, the people He uses to get things done, the fact that He'll even use me, His kindness, His grace and mercy, His love. I'm always left in awe. That overwhelming feeling of wow, He really IS that good. He really IS who He says He is. And the "Did that really just happen??" moments. I find myself if not on a daily, at least a bi-weekly moment feeling this way and wanting to tell everyone about it. Who wouldn't want to share in something so much bigger than yourself???

He wants you back home

He walks on the water
He walks through the walls
He walks on the water
He walks through the walls

I'll say it again say it again say it again
Oh I'll say it again say it again say it again

He walks on the water
He walks through the walls
He walks on the water
He walks through the walls



My Jesus He raises the dead men to life
My Jesus He gave the blind man his sight
2x

He walks.....

I'll say it again...

My Jesus He healed me
Healed my broken heart
My Jesus He'll heal you
If you just let him start

Just let Him start
Just let Him start
He walks on the water
No matter the storm
He walks through the walls
He wants you back home

-Amber Torres

Power

Power
Power doesn't always come in bright, giant packages like lighting
Power sometimes come in unexpected places like...
power sockets...small but when connected with the right object
Bring about a crazy amount of power

Power isn't always loud and boisterous
Power many times is in the still, small voice
The subtleties of something that can be easily missed

Just because something or someone is yelling doesn't make them powerful
When you look at Jesus, he rarely had to raise His voice.
He didn't have to
His words and actions carried so much weight that they spoke for themselves
The power showed itself

So next time you think you aren't big enough
Or this enough
Or that enough
Breathe In
Breathe Out
And take that step of faith

-Amber

Meet me my darling

You've read all the stories but you still don't know a thing about ME.
You talk a lot about me but you wouldn't know who I was if I stood right in front of you
Every week you say you meet to get closer to Me
But has it ever occurred to you that
I ALWAYS want to be with YOU

This is two-way street my darling
I'm a gentleman who loves you
No matter how close I want to get
I'll only go where you let me
As far into your heart as you'll let me

It's time to put those stories to the test
Give me your worst and I'll show you my best
I'll turn it around
I'll turn it around
I promise.

Meet me in the secret place
You'll find me
You'll find my face
My darling
My sweet sweet darling

I'll be here
Waiting for you
Have no fear
I'm on your side

Meet me in the secret place
You'll find me
You'll find my face
My darling
My sweet sweet darling
-Amber Torres

Evolving

That moment when nothing extravagant takes places but something extravagant just took place.
In one moment to realize that some people are content with where they are and may always live in the past. I'm not saying one is better than the other but what I am saying is that I'm not that girl. I feel like the closer I get to God the more I change. Even from just a year ago or 6 months ago I'm a different person. I'm glad I didn't get married young. It would have been crazy. It works for some people just not for me. I think the word my friend used was evolving. I've realized I am constantly evolving. And I don't think I will ever stop. I think the key is to find someone who evolves similarly to you. Let me explain. Someone who's passions are at an equal or close to equal level so when the Lord takes you to a different glory, they are already there or right behind. Of course things happen in our lives but in general, this should be the case. Because if NOT? One person will be running and the other is lagging behind and that I'm sure gets old after awhile. Especially if they aren't actively seeking the face of God. Of course you have grace and they have grace with you in the moments and times in life where we just aren't "feeling it". It happens. And the same goes the other way, if you are totally a fireball for the Lord and the person you find is happy doing a regular job and having regular friends, there is NOTHING wrong with that! The Lord has a different plan for everyone and that person may get tired of you talking about spiritual things all the time. Either way, the whole "unequally yolked" thing means so much more than just salvation.

Secret Place

You're a sweet sweet melody
I love you I love you
You're a sweet sweet melody
I love you I really do

I wanna nestle in your arms so safe
Feel your breathe, warm on my skin
Hear you sing me sweet lullabies
Songs of hope and life

Seeing your bright smile when I look up
You keep filling my ever flowing cup
I feel your heartbeat
So steady So strong
And it makes ME smile

You're a sweet sweet melody
I love you I love you
You're a sweet sweet melody
I love you I really do

Even when I get up to go about my day
I know you never leave
And I take Your spirit with me
Though the world around seems dreary
You never leave me weary

I never worry if you'll still be there when I come back
To this place
Our place
Our secret place
Because You are already there
Excitingly waiting for me

I'm a sweet sweet melody
To you To you
I'm a sweet sweet melody
To you To you

-Amber Torres

Yay Thanksgiving Outfit!!!

Today is our church Thanksgiving dinner. I always usually find something already in my closet that I haven't worn in awhile and schlep it together and end up still looking fine. But today I really wanted a new outfit. I knew that shoes were out of the question because of money tightness but I wanted a dress and tights or something. I thought I knew what I wanted but I didn't. (Nothing new there) I needed to go to Walmart for a wreath hanger for our classroom at the church so I figured hey, one-stop-shop. I also needed to make cranberry sauce and for once I was glad Walmart had a food section.

I look at the women's clothes and bam. This bright blue a-line dress was just highlighted to me. Then I thought, "Bright blue? This is for thanksgiving? Shouldn't I get a brown or grey dress or something" Turns out, there was no grey one in my size and I wasn't going to do black. There was a red dress but I was like "Meh". So I tried on the blue dress and a couple others but when I put this dress on it was like it was meant for me. Very rarely do I find something that just seems perfectly tailored for me and this was it. I heard God say, "Who cares what color you're "supposed" to wear. Wear what you like." And by the way, did I mention it was only $13?

I ended up having fishnet tights at home and Suzi had given me a $10 card for Kohl's. I came home, picked up the card and was off across town to find a cardigan or something to cover my arms. I went with my brother (woo hoo) and couldn't find anythingggg. Then He saw this grey short sleeved short cover that I thought "yeah!" I go to the register and guess what? It's $5. Not even enough to use the card she gave me. I had seen this really pretty bedazzled headband I wanted that Isaiah talked me out of because I didn't know how much everything was going to cost and lo and behold, I was able to get the pretty headband! You have no idea how excited I was. So I only had to spend $1.78 out of my pocket :) So my total for the Thanksgiving outfit was $15. I had the shoes and tights so that helped but I'm just marveled at how good God is. I could have not made the trip to Palmdale and I wouldn't have been totally happy either. I'm glad I listened to that still small voice.

You're actin kinda funny

You're actin kinda funny
Don't worry about me
I just want to be friends
Do these awkward situations ever end?

Awkward to the point of feeling
Like you did something wrong
Even though you know darn well
There's nothing to talk about
So I'll write a song

It's sad to me
But I guess I understand
The differences in posture
Are something that is new to me
I'm not mad...
Just...
Confused.
But if I take my magnifying glass
And look a little bit closer
I get it
You have a lot to lose

I would say I'm sorry
But I wouldn't know what for
Because all I've done is minister
And be me
And what?

You're actin kinda funny
Again, don't worry about me
I just want to be friends
And these awkward situations never end

He's much bigger

I miss you
I try to forget
And sometimes I succeed
But then you sneak up on me
When I least expect it
And I cry a little bit
Then pray that you're ok
Then smile again because...
Even though I'm not there to see
He's much bigger, and loves you
Even more than me.

Oh November

You have been by far, the most happy month yet. Not for the reasons I would usually be happy though.  I see doors opening and doors closing. Things moving, shaking and changing. My confidence in the Lord building. Friendships growing. It really is true. God lifts up the humble. And I'm trying to keep the balance of humility and false humility. So many times I thought that not doing something or not going in front of people was being humble but if that is what God has for me and I DON'T do it; that is false humility. Meaning, I want to LOOK like I'm being humble when in fact it's an image. I'm learning these lessons little by little. The most important lesson is that NO MATTER WHAT, ALWAYS follow the leading of the Holy Spirit. Don't start listening to man's ideas or your own fears because either side is wrong. Keep in step the the Holy Spirit and you will always be on the right path. I'm not saying it's easy because even as we speak I'm learning a LOT. But I have found that by constantly being in His presence makes discernment easier.