I had to post this beautiful thing God did for me today.

I've been needing some money to get a couple things done with my car and well...I'm in school not working. I got 10 bucks for playing drums yesterday and I knew I needed to sow some money. I usually would have bought some coffee etc. with it but I haven't gotten money recently and I wanted to give. So I was obedient and gave. Little did I know that I would go to my family's house, open my mouth about needing something and end up with 12x that amount!!! To God be the glory! I am so in awe of His faithfulness. Even when I am doing stupid stuff He is there like...ok Amber...sigh... I don't deserve it. I made some dumb decisions but that's the mercy. Needless to say, I really felt like this was another chance to get it right! Thank you Lord for not giving up on me. I am blessed to have Abba.

Long Time Coming

I believed every word

No matter what they said

I believed every word

Thought the best was to be had

When everyone around me

Tried to warn me

I refused to see it

I was too in love

Too blind

And unfortunately

You didn't love me

Your words lasted longer than I wish they had

The power I gave you 

Was bad bad bad

And my lack of confidence didn't help

Thinking you were the best 

I couldn't possibly risk losing you…

right?

You let me go

Without letting me know

Until one day you show up

The evidence on your neck…

what was I thinking

My heart sinking

I tried to stay mad but really…

I gave you the power.

And I finally took it away.

I am me. 

And I pray for your best

I have moved on.

You aren't the one.

Amen.

Maven

Maven is my stage name. It's kind of funny how it came about. I was listening to a Kanye West song. He uses the word maven. The Lord said, that's your name. And it means talented in many areas. And I know it's not because Amber is talented in many areas, it's strictly because of the Lord. Because I always ask Him to use me however He needs.

How Sad

You haven't changed. Granted it takes two to tango but I'm amazed at how I viewed you. I ignored all the signs that were right in front of me. You didn't know what to do with me and you weren't willing to give up your own will and desires for your true purpose. This whole time, I felt something different with you, I knew there was something different. And there was...is. But you are refusing to let God be the master of your life. Therefore, we couldn't be together. I'm not perfect. I was wide-eyed and bushy tailed just for the simple fact that I could speak on spiritual matters and you understood and how you opened my eyes to such deeper truth. It didn't help you were good looking either haha. But instead of just being your friend like I should have I thought to myself, "There could never be someone else like him". That in and of itself is a lie from the pit of hell. The Lord will never have me settle. I make that decision. You had and have the makings of a true David. I pray for your healing and look forward to the day when you decide to walk into your destiny. But I on the other hand, I am actively pursuing God's calling and purpose no matter what I have to give up. Not perfectly of course because I'm hard headed and have still parts of me that are always going to be going from glory to glory. But I am a daughter of the most high God which means I am a princess in the kingdom and have all the rights of an adopted daughter to the glory and power which all belongs to Him. That is my identity. In my God. And the love He has for me. Today I saw something and the Lord just revealed to me the brokenness...and I wasn't angry anymore. I was sad. So sad I almost started crying. The Lord be with you.

-Maven