How Sad

You haven't changed. Granted it takes two to tango but I'm amazed at how I viewed you. I ignored all the signs that were right in front of me. You didn't know what to do with me and you weren't willing to give up your own will and desires for your true purpose. This whole time, I felt something different with you, I knew there was something different. And there was...is. But you are refusing to let God be the master of your life. Therefore, we couldn't be together. I'm not perfect. I was wide-eyed and bushy tailed just for the simple fact that I could speak on spiritual matters and you understood and how you opened my eyes to such deeper truth. It didn't help you were good looking either haha. But instead of just being your friend like I should have I thought to myself, "There could never be someone else like him". That in and of itself is a lie from the pit of hell. The Lord will never have me settle. I make that decision. You had and have the makings of a true David. I pray for your healing and look forward to the day when you decide to walk into your destiny. But I on the other hand, I am actively pursuing God's calling and purpose no matter what I have to give up. Not perfectly of course because I'm hard headed and have still parts of me that are always going to be going from glory to glory. But I am a daughter of the most high God which means I am a princess in the kingdom and have all the rights of an adopted daughter to the glory and power which all belongs to Him. That is my identity. In my God. And the love He has for me. Today I saw something and the Lord just revealed to me the brokenness...and I wasn't angry anymore. I was sad. So sad I almost started crying. The Lord be with you.

-Maven