January 28, 2010

Wow.Wow.Wow.

More has happened this past month then the past year and a half combined. Be careful what you pray for haha. This is a year when God is moving and positioning people for the future and I CLEARLY see God doing that. I've had to get over my fears and because I'm just taking small steps, God is taking those small steps and making them miles.

I'm stepping out into things I've never had the confidence to do before. Things I was always afraid of.

I've always been afraid of truly being and showing the gifts God has given me for fear that I would be looked at as prideful or oh "she likes to be in front", but as I have recently learned, it has nothing to do with that.

It wasn't until I was willing to step out and show myself in the light that God has been able to show me a whole new world.

I'm starting a ministry, with lots of help of course. haha. Because I wouldn't know the first thing about it, but I'm learning that finding and knowing the right people and not being afraid to ask for help goes a LONG way.

And I've found a place I can play drums with someone who sees something in me that I've never really seen in myself for the simple fact that I am me. And that person is willing and wanting to help me be a phenominal drummer and musician as well as it being in a place for God.

It's insane. It's taken me awhile and now I can see why the people closest to me have been frustrated about where I've been because they've seen all of this in me but I havne't allowed the beast to be unleashed haha. And what's crazy??? I know there's a whole lot more to come.

I'm going to get in the WORD and stay grounded in my relationship with the Lord first and foremost. Because He is the one who has allowed me to do what I do. I need to know what He says about situations and things and look at them from new spiritual eyes. And take them for face value. I can do ALL things throught CHRIST who strengthens ME. And know that as I keep pursuing Him, my heart will grow ever closer to His and therefore the blessings and giftings, and genuinely helping people will follow.

So...this is January 28, 2010.
Get ready for the ride!

Day 3

So, today is day 3 of the Daniel Fast. It's been interesting. I'm asking God to help guide me through this because as much as everyone talked about what we are supposed to do, I'm still a little lost. I still have 18 days but I really want to make this count. I really am expecting God to do miracles and to reveal things about me and in me that I havne't dealt with or even seen yet. I'm trying not to look exausted even though I would love to stay in bed all day baha. I'm being productive. Applying to a bunch of different online programs so I can hopefully, somewhere, get the math class I need and move on. But such as everything...it takes time. And I need to send transcripts to all these schools so they know where I'm at. Hopefully, I don't have to go to these schools and retake the assesment test, but who knows. I just have to do what I have to do.