Coming to terms

It was one of those nights
They don't happen often but when they do
They hit you like a punch in the face
It wants to take you out

It's weird
Because I felt like I knew it was going to happen
God most likely
Even while I was in process of being
Unreasonably annoyed and irritated
I knew it was happening
And I was pretty proud for not being as bitter as I could have been

But still
I was on the verge of tears multiple times
And I just wanted to quit, go in a corner, and cry
With no one to ask what was wrong
No one to answer to
No one to barge in on my selfish time

But I didn't
Until it was over
Then I found my quiet place
And cried out to the living God
The only one who knew where I was
The only one who knew my state of mind
The only one who could listen
The only one who could help
And I told Him
That He was the God of the universe
And that I wanted whatever grandeur job
Or situation He has planned for me
Because that's all I could muster
Nothing more.