Something different

There's something different about you. I know I've said it before about different people and the truth is that everyone is different from the everyone else but... truly. There is so much mystery about you that I get to peek into every time we spend time together and it never ceases to amaze me the beautiful soul you are. You sense my hesitation and are bothered by it. But you see, if you only knew my past and where I've come from. The boys I've dealt with. The struggle of being fine with just being me. I know it sounds cliche but I am an adapter. I would never think to admit it in the past but I can now and it has freed me. God is using you to free me. Your existence in my life is freeing me to slowly understand that there is someone who will genuinely, authentically care for me as I am and love in despite of and in spite of my baggage. Being with you has made me want to be the best version of me. Not because I feel like I need to change but because with you I feel like I can be the greatest version of myself and you would never flinch your devotion. My worries have never truly been that I wouldn't be good enough, it was always that if I wholly devoted myself to the things I love most, that everyone would think that I am too much. (As if they didn't already) That my successes and promotions from God in this life would be emasculating to whoever I was with. This was my history. And I had resigned myself to the fact that in order to be with someone, I would never reach my full potential, and you've proved me wrong. Thank you.