Honest?

I don't understand
The reason for this song
Except that I come glorify You
Despite my fleshy feelings
You have come so far and above
Always there
In my lack of better judgment

Everday
I sing songs to You
But do I mean them?

I try to convince myself
That I am a true worshiper
What a heavy load that seems to carry
And yes Lord
I know you take our loads if we ask
But the process just seems so...well...
Repetitive

But thank you God
That you use me
Just the way I am
Faults and all
Though you mold me
And shape me
There isn't a certain
Point I need to be
For me to do Your will