Crooked smiles

I don't know 

What to say anymore

These words that flow

Are sticking to my throat

The tears they're welling up

But nothing is coming out

Words don't seem to work on you

You slap them

Spin them right back around 

To me

But cracked

And crooked

I slowly lose the reason

Why I deal with all this treason

People only want what's good for them

I thought if I put my wants at the end

All would be well

And all would be happy

But the truth is

No one ever truly is

They smile and pretend

They smile with their crooked teeth

They smile with their crooked words

They justify their means to the end

So I wake up

Here I go again

Leaning on one who is so much bigger than me

Knowing that growing tired

Of doing good

Is a sign to keep going

Keep doing 

Keep loving

Keep leaning

One day

I'll see

That all those crooked smiles

Were just broken hearts 

Enlivened