Random blah

The first few hours of the day weren't fantastic...but I just kept fighting the thoughts and called the right people etc and now I can breathe again. Sigh...thank you Lord. The devil wants to keep me down and I won't let him!!

I feel good

I have a LOT of accountability this time around for a new, healthy lifestyle. I have Zulma (who is my food nazi :) ) And I'll have Sharon for workouts once her team thing starts March 4th. But I started today. Did 20 min hard biking and then Zumba with the hard core teacher. I've taken so many Zumba instructors and she is one of the few who actually pushes you. I'm taking my before pics today (which ummm...no one will ever see. Well, at least until there's a nice after pic.) But man, these supplements are crazy expensive. Thank God people want to support me with that. Well, It's a nice day and I get most of it to myself so I'm happy. :)

Hmmmm hip hop

Hmmmmm...
Hip Hop
R&B

It's been such a long time since I've really gotten to dig deep into my love of hip hop. My disgust with bubblegum music has kept me much at bay. My past relationship has been a rough one. Going to the club, or just listening/dancing to it was something that was such a big part of who I was at one time. Then I heard a friend playing a song in his car and I know he only listens to Christian music so I asked if I could listen. Then that turned into like an hour of him playing all these songs that took me wayyyy back. And weirdly enough...God was healing me. This joy came back from what I love. Of course I love many types of music but hip hop was always a key holder and I had forgotten. It just made me smile and honestly I was dumbstruck. I didn't have anything to say, (which if you know me is quite rare). I almost started crying because it's just another way of how good God is. He even cares about my love for hip hop to bring it back in a beautiful way.

Sigh....praise Jesus.

The highly unexpected adventure

So here's how my highly unexpected adventure went.

I was at church, (as per the usual Friday night) But I was going to leave early to go to a spoken word event that's held every month that I never get to go to and my tia seemed to be taking forever to let the kinds play and sing (which is why I waited longer to leave.) I then get to the place and am told, "Oh dang, it's over already because there weren't a lot of people." I was like, "Seriously?" I had a feeling I'd have to read something but didn't have anything with me so maybe I'd get out of it. NOPE. Someone had a smart phone in which I could look up my blog and find something on there. I found something. I wouldn't say it was anointed or anything special. Just an amberism. Then after church I thought a group of us were going to Denny's. (The usual joint) but little by little every one leaves. THEN the real fun starts. I lock my keys in my car. Surprisingly I've never done that before. Again, I was like, "Seriously?" So my friend and his brother were scouring their car to see if they could find anything that could help but because my car is all "high-tech" the usual stuff wouldn't work. The guys were really patient though which I have to say I was surprised by because I'm used to dealing with a brother who's probably lived with me too long haha. My friend calls his gf who has AAA and who ironically, helped my brother with the same problem last year. (I had TOTALLY forgotten). God knew I needed help. I called my dad, he didn't answer. I called my brother, he didn't answer. I texted him and he responds... "Awww, try and hit up dad". AAA comes and uses his high-tech gadgetry to open my car and I haven't been so relieved in a long time lol. And I was pretty sure my friend was tired and not wanting to go to Denny's anymore but he was all for it. So I'm like, "Ok, it's not that late, let's do this". His brother said was going to meet us there. We get there and just start talking. I forgot what it's like to just have nice conversation. Especially with someone who really knows Jesus. I'm used to having to tone things down or explain myself but for once in a loonng while it was just this mutual understanding of the spirits. I'm a talker and I lovvee hear other people talk. I love hearing what's on their hearts. What fires them up and brings them passion. What God is showing them. And I got to do that while being me. Anywho, it was most definitely an adventurous unexpected night. I thank God for it.

Sappy

His eyes, they smile
His heart is big.
Bigger than I would have thought possible
His laugh is contagious
His smile, outrageous.

He is kind
He is compassionate
Loves strangers as if he's known them forever
His faith is great

He is spicy and strong-willed
Hard-headed at times
Some lessons he has to learn the hard way

But that's alright
I don't mind

Dear future husband, partner in life, best friend, confidant,

                    I pray for you. I love you even though I haven't met you yet. I thank God for you and hope  your very best. That this time apart is making us both stronger, smarter, better humans, better son and daughter of our Pappa. I hope you know what you're getting into. Well, you don't yet. But you will haha. And if you're wondering why I'd post this in the blogosphere well...I guess because I think everyone should pray and hope in their future. You're already here in the natural so why not talk to you? Well, I'm gonna go get ready to get my worship leading on. I love you.

                         -Your Girl

Random post valentine spouting

For years it's been the same
I like him, he who has no name
Because his name is taken by another

I always see it
Before they even do
These guys' eyes
Tell more than they'd like them to

Their hearts are taken
Though they don't know it
And it makes me sigh...
Because I see it.
Every time

One day it'll happen to me
I'll get the guy who doesn't yet see
But everyone else does...
And it'll be the right one

I can still do a full bridge!

So, I've been prepping myself to go back to the gym for like...a month.
I finally went today. I did the bike because well, that's my favorite. I did a good pace for half an hour and then stretched. OH HOW I MISS IT!!!!!!! Praise God I'm still flexible. It'll definitely take some consistency and time to get me back to where I was but I'm glad it's not impossible. And I tried to do a bride. When I first tried, I did it but I had a spasm in my back. I stretch some more and thought, "Let me try again." So I did and bam!!! I was like woo hoo!!! Anywho, I'm so glad I have good music to workout to. I miss working out. Well, that's kind of it. Oh yeah...

I made me and my bro Valentine's Day breakfast and he was pleasantly surprised. :) I was happy. Went to class and now I'm getting ready to go to work. It'll probably be slow because all the ladies will be out with their men haha.

Adios Amigos!